Calm, Steady & Persistent

This dream was submitted through the AMBER website by Dennis Okeefe, who has given permission for it to be shared here.  This dream occured in April of 2011.

Dennis writes:

While pondering how to remember Baba more constantly and consistently for several days, this dream came.  Baba stood about twenty feet in front of me and indicated without words that He was going to instruct me in how to achieve this goal of continual remembrance. He then wrote on a slate He was carrying these three words—CALM STEADY PERSISTENT–I knew the first two words referred to the general state of mind Baba wanted me to keep, and the last word referred to how I should persistently recall His name.  The writing on the slate seems to be a reinforcement of Baba presenting himself in a teaching mode, as if He was writing on a blackboard in front of class.

The Divine Plan

I am writing this November 4, 2010 from memory, as it is deeply etched in my heart, it is part of me. This dream took place when we lived in Nicholson, Georgia, shortly after Lilly and I got married in 1993.

In the dream I was in a giant playhouse, on the stage, with a giant curtain, and lots of seats going back, row after row after row. It was completely dark in the theater. All the seats were empty. There was just enough light inside to see that all seats were empty and to trace the lines of the walls and balconies, and the interior architecture with my eyes. But as soon as I saw the empty seats, I turned and faced the curtain. There was light coming from behind the curtain, but it didn’t come under, or through a gap in the curtains, it came through very softly as a warm reddish light, like when a kid puts a flashlight in his mouth at night, and the cheek wall (membrane) gets red and bright.

I approached the curtain. It was extremely thick, and looking up I saw it rise about 20 feet to the ceiling, I looked down and it was somehow fastened to the stage, I looked to both sides and it seems to be fastened to stage right and stage left, and I couldn’t see or find a parting in the curtain, there was no way to get to the other side. Yet, I saw a dim red light coming through, and reaching out my right hand I – felt – the curtain. It felt like a living membrane, not like a cloth or fabric. When I reached out and touched it, I realized I could make a way – through – this membrane and I started to push and with the palm of my right hand rub and rub, and rub until the membrane became thin. I kept rubbing in a circular motion, and it made a small hole in the curtain, about the size of a dime. When I realized that I had made a hole, I pulled my hand back from the curtain. As the curtain came toward me a little the hole got slightly larger, like the size of a quarter. Light was issuing forth from the hole which was at about the same height as my belly-button. I took a half step backwards, then bent forward to look through the hole into that light, and what I saw was not light at all.

What I beheld was what I now call the Light-of-God, or “Nur-e-Allah” as expressed in Sufism, and it is not “light” but the living essence of the Reality of God in the Impersonal aspect, formless infinite God as the Living Light of Truth. That experience, my darshan of that Divine Light, was simultaneously blissful and agonizing, and the experience filled me, slowly, with greater and greater amounts of bliss, then more agony, and then more bliss, alternating up and up, filling me up and up, until I felt I was going to “drop my body” (die). The only way I can accurately describe the experience is that in tiny increments, bliss rose in me, then agony, then bliss, to keep me carefully balanced as it rose higher and higher. By rose, I mean filled up, greater amounts of Bliss in me, with agony balancing it out.

At that point, I started to repeat Meher Baba’s name, as I wished to die with his name on my lips. As soon as I started to repeat his name, I began to discern the Divine Plan, written within the light of God itself. That Plan assured me, on many levels, that “there is nothing to worry about.” Most assuredly, it is all being “taken care of”- everything. We are meant to be happy and not worry over the world. At that point when the light had filled me, and the Divine Plan was clear, and my repeating of Meher Baba’s name was continuous I woke up in my bed in Nicholson (near Athens, GA).

My wife, Lilly, was sound asleep next to me in my bed. I felt tremendous energy moving through my body. It was moving from my crown chakra slowly down towards my feet. When it reached my feet, like a professional swimmer, it did a special turn, and then gracefully moved back up towards my head, this went on for some time. While I lay experiencing this energy, the thought came – get up and write down the Divine Plan that you read in the light. Then another thought came – no, let it be, it is all within me, and if I try to move out of bed in my current state, I may in fact drop this form!

Right at that moment, Lilly turned over in the bed, and talked in her sleep: “The first fruits of the Garden are supposed to be given to God.” And then she turned back the other way and started to snore. There was no way she could have known anything I was experiencing, because I was not speaking at all, just being.

The next day I asked her, and she had no memory of speaking in her sleep.


Xia: “All is taken care of, be happy, give yourself first to God,” a perfect summary of  not only Laurent’s dream, but a sentiment he also strongly reinforces in my life.

Laurent: This was my first and last experience of its kind wherein I experienced the impersonal formless infinite light of God. It remains ineffable and divinely alive, and contains Infinite Knowledge and Infinite Bliss. There is nothing more I can say. Om

Hearing Hazrat Babajan

October 13, 2010

Last night, this morning really, before I woke up I had a dream.

I don’t remember seeing Baba, or Babajan, but it was as if I could – hear – (or read) what Babajan communicated to Meher Baba (as Merwan) early on.  As if it was the period before she unveiled him to his Ancient One state.  It was something like this:  “Try to be quiet with God.”  And there was a lot about how to clean and care for his sadra (long shirt), and who would be wearing a sadra also (in the future).

All I know is that it felt like the first things Hazrat Babajan ever said to young Merwan, and the words were spoken with so much love, tenderness, peace, and suggestion, not at all like a Master speaking, but like a proud mother giving advice to her favorite son.

Thank you Beloved Baba,

That’s all.


Xia: Babajan’s birth name was Gulrukh meaning “face like a rose”.  I feel this when I look at her, when I think of her kissing young Merwan’s forehead on his way home from college in 1914, and when I contemplate Laurent’s description of hearing her speak.  Like a rose, her presence unfolds a delicate grace.

Laurent: I have never had a dream quite like this one, where it was more about hearing the words of a Master, rather than seeing, but the words were infused with Love, and great power, and I felt like I was in between the two, the great Master Hazrat Babajan, whom Merwan called “The Emperor” and Merwan himself, who became known to the world as the Avatar Meher Baba.

Lord Rama as Vishnu

August 28th, 2010
8:08 AM

Dearest Beloved Baba,

Last night, I had a dream. In the dream I was sitting before Lord Rama/Vishnu, and watching a lotus bud grow up from his navel, which was behind a triangle like this:

There was a on his forehead. I knew it was Lord Rama. His eyes were closed.

The lotus bud (and stem) were slowly moving (growing) up from behind the triangle, which was sort of detached from his belly, and floating just in front of where his bellybutton would be. It had gold on it around the edges, and purple.

The lotus bud and vine/stem were both a dark but vibrant green. The bud was closed.

Copyright (c) 2011 Nigel Anders,


Xia: When Laurent first shared this dream with me I perceived the slow-moving growth of bud and stem as symbolic of self-restrained (or deliberate) development.  I understood the dream as a whole, as a symbol for Self-Realization or enlightened Awareness.  Only later was it shared with me (by another) that Lord Rama is known as the Lord of Self-Control.

Laurent: Rama’s face was more square jawed than my sketch, he was extremely peaceful, as if in Nirvikalpa-Samadhi. I felt that I was having darshan of Rama as Vishnu.  Before having this dream I had just been chatting with Vanessa in Myrtle Beach about how I found someone to illustrate my version of Ramayana.

The Himalayas are Within Me

August 12, 2010

Dearest Beloved Baba,

Last night I had a dream.

All I can say is that upon waking, I realized that the Himalayas (mountain range) are WITHIN ME, and somehow, by climbing Mt. Kailash within me, I reach the abode of Lord Shiva. I am not certain how this relates to my life with You, but the essence of it was that in Hinduism when they mention Mt. Kailash as Shiva’s abode they mean an internal state. I saw this clearly.

All my love, as always, your son,



Xia: This reflected to me an experience from my not-too-distant past.  In 2000 a beloved friend was experiencing what he referred to as “spiritual crisis”.  From India he wrote me these words, “I am going to Father Himalayas, to Mt. Kailash, to find Lord Shiva.  This is how I can find and approach the Shiva within.”  Nearly 8 weeks later my myriad of questions to him were met with this response,  “I am alive!  With my eyes half-closed at the center of the Universe (Kailash) I found a peace inside myself I haven’t known before.  Success!”

Statue of Lord Shiva, with his son Lord Ganesh and a photo of Avatar Meher Baba

Laurent: I came across this dream while going through my diary backwards (from the present towards the past), and had totally forgotten about it. I know that Meher Baba mentioned Mount Kailash to his disciple Bhau, who wrote, “The sixth plane of the mental world in Sanskrit is called Brahmaloke – the World of God, and he w ho attains this high plane is titled Kailash.” From: The Nothing and The Everything, by Bhau Kalchuri (North Myrtle Beach: Manifestation Inc., 1981), p. 94. Also, Meher Baba visited Kailash Temple, and Indra Sabha, as well as other caves at the Ellora Caves, India. (See: Celebrating Divine Presence, by L. Weichberger, et al (London: Companion Books, 2008) p.10-11.

I Am Need

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Dearest Beloved Baba,

Last night I had a dream.

I was traveling around India with Sevn McAuley. In the dream I was reading an English newspaper that had an article by you, or about you, with a beautiful photo of you (older in your life).

In the article you were quoted as saying, “I am need.”

It was strong. During the traveling I thought I lost my fanny pack containing my wallet, passport, etc. and told Sevn we may have to go back and find it. Then I looked in my backpack and it was there at the bottom, under my clothes.

That’s all for now.

All my love, your son,


Xia: May I echo Laurent from his chat with Cynthia Barrientos (referenced below), “Need is fuel to arrive at Realization…Realization is Needless.”  Through the statement “I am need” Baba is saying that He provides the energy – the provocation, nourishment & propellant – to become Self-Realized.

Laurent: At the time I had this dream, and for some time before I had been contemplating Meher Baba’s “affirmations” and thought of collecting all his words starting with “I am…”, “I was…”, “I will be…”, “I have…” etc.  I still intend to create this book.

Shortly after this dream, on June 9, 2010, I had a chat with Cynthia Barrientos during which we discussed the content of the dream, and its possible meanings.

For Avatar Meher Baba’s affirmations to others, see:


Meher Baba’s Feet

From: Laurent Weichberger <>
Organization: “You and I are not we but One” ~ AMB
Reply-To: Laurent Weichberger <>
Date: Wed, 10 Mar 2010 10:55
To: Alison Govi, Reggie Fitchett, Liza Hamilton, Sarah Weichberger, Anne
Weichberger, Julie Engsberg, Rick Chapman.
Subject: Dream of Baba

I had a dream of Baba last night.

In the dream, I was looking on-line at photos, and came across a photo of

"Meher Baba... Feet of the Master," by Katie Rose (oil pastels on canvas sheet, 8" x 7"). Used with Permission.

When I scrolled down, I couldn’t see Beloved Baba’s face, because his feet were coming towards me in the image (toward the camera) so much that it blocked my view of his face. IOW, his feet were larger than his whole body
and face, but I could see it was Baba, and it was an amazing dream.

He was very present.

Interestingly, it was a photo of Baba at some event arranged (or some how organized by the Paramhansa Yogananda people). I remember that detail. It was unusual, and I thought so in the dream as well. Maybe the recent Yogananda energy brought by Dan (Reggie’s climber friend) is involved?

Love and peace, and Jai Avatar Meher Baba…



Xia: When reading Laurent’s dream,  the exaggerated proportion of Meher Baba’s feet call to mind Laurent’s immense devotion of Baba.  The feet are often a symbol associated to the concept of devotion to a Master.

Laurent: What comes to mind when I read this dream is that I struggle a lot around images, as I am very visually oriented. When I say struggle, I mean I love images, but images can be a distraction, like shadows, or shadow puppets. I
like to use the Google “Search Images” tool, and use it to find images of
Baba, or if I learn of a new thing, or person, to see what or who they are
through images, even ego-surfing to see what images are associated with
myself on the web! So, I have looked at images of Baba using the web many
times. Interestingly, when I just tried it now to find an image of “Meher
Baba’s feet,” for this Come (True) dream post, I found this painting done by
my friend Katie. Her painting is based on a photo of Baba’s feet, and is as
close as we have to what I saw in my dream.